For the gerbera

Promise you won't let me down

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 19:09:34 GMT

What do I count on?
Is it the road less travelled,
Or the one I already know?

Fri, 04 Dec 2009 18:25:04 GMT

It's cold here. But other than that, it's so so very warm.

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 21:41:22 GMT

I am the diamond glints on snow.

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 13:48:41 GMT

Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,

I am the softly falling snow.

I am the gentle showers of rain,

I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,

I am in the graceful rush

Of beautiful birds in circling flight,

I am the starshine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,

I am in a quiet room.

I am in the birds that sing,

I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there. I do not die.

-Mary Elizabeth Frye

Just to hear your still small voice again

Sun, 27 Sep 2009 11:05:16 GMT

Holy, righteous, faithful to the end
Savior, healer, redeemer and friend

My soul secure, your promise sure.
Your love endures, always.

Thank you

That someday it might lead me back to you

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 15:04:47 GMT

You're a cool breeze in the setting sun,
New year's, the 4th.. all wrapped into one,
You make me want to be someone that you could look up to

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 14:30:46 GMT

I got a new pair of jeans, I wonder if you know.
They're of a different shade this time,
I'd like to know what you think.

What if our love never went away
What if it's lost behind words we could never find

The same deep water as you

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 15:41:17 GMT

"A child needs your love most when he deserves it least"
Erma Bombeck

"But good luck to them. I tried for the better part of sixteen years to punish him.
Nothing I took away mattered to him in the first place.
What's the juvenile justice system going to do?
Send him to his room? I tried that.
He didn't have much use for anything outside his room, or in it; what's the difference?
And they're hardly going to shame him.
You can only subject people to anguish who have a conscience.
You can only punish people who have hopes to frustrate or attachments to sever; who worry what you think of them.
You can really only punish people who are already a little bit good."

Good book, this book I be reading.
I am tired now.
And I think my posts are always kind of homogenous,
that makes this space kind of hackneyed
I mean for people, not for me
I like it v much still

Shao if you see this, I miss you, I kind of need that imagination that brought us the carpark and the roof garden and the drizzle,
I kind of need it for various reasons

Burst through the door

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 07:31:28 GMT

Follow me into the dark?

I'll be better when I'm older.

Somewhere in between

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 16:23:07 GMT

Vermilion and Chartreuse

There's you
by dint of hubris
nothing to lose, so much to gain
and I,
with scraps of leftover
and then, there's everyone else,
which makes everything a whole lot better.

I enjoy acoustic, stripped down naked and very much,
candid.

Moving at the speed of light into eternity

Wed, 05 Aug 2009 14:35:18 GMT

Put a new song in my heart Lord

Everyone needs compassion

Sat, 25 Jul 2009 16:52:33 GMT

If the pursuits of power and kingdom and signs and wonders
do not fall back on love,
do not have the purpose to love,
then it is not of God.

The same power that conquered the grave lives in me.
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Something Nat shared with me from some blog as well:

I asked if you’d seen any good horror movies lately.

You said, “There aren’t any good horror movies anymore.
In the 90’s we were scared of the end of the world,
so we made movies about that.
In the 80’s it was serial killers and psychopaths.
Today, we just turn on the news."

It would be nice to have good horror movies again.

Something to think about.
XOX, Peace out people

Familiar Faces

Sat, 18 Jul 2009 22:33:42 GMT

180709

Happy 17th in advanced saac!
And SPOT, gonna love you long time <3!
AND NO ONE NOTICED THE CCTV D:
Weekends are good stuff.

170709

These are the days that I've been missing
Give me the taste,
give me the joy of summer wine
These are the days that bring new meaning
I feel the stillness of the sun,
and I feel fine.

Sometimes when the nights are closing early
I remember you and I start to smile
Even though now you don't want to know me
I get on by, and I go the extra mile.

These are the times of love and meaning
Ice of the heart melted away and found the light
These are the days of endless dreaming
Troubles of life are floating away like a bird in flight.

160609

And so I write.
I was thinking yesterday, don't get to do much of that outside of textbook context these days.
The scope of events to ponder about has become so small,
as I watch people get agitated over the littlest of things,
when there are so many greater things to worry about,
so much more important things in the world that could use
all this energy but never gets it.
This is what the education system does to us, srsly.
I was thinking of a way I could find something refreshing,
and I thought I'd find some waters,
that reflect the city lights, scintillating sky scrapers in the night
then with the tip of my finger, I'd gently brush the surface of the water
With echoing ripples, the city would blur
Well, I am the lover of all thrills cheap, or what say you
but it'd be nice don't you think
to feel on top for just a bit
and feel like I can conquer so much with so little
even if the ability had only transient effects.
Cos after awhile the waters would still again,
and I'd be on my way.
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Dear Thespian,
as you lay supine on this stage you've painted
I maunder on in the cavernous lofts of this moribund camaraderie
the inchoate mess you've stirred up
The wanton lies that encirlce, and close in

the incongruous dichotomy that fell so gracefully,
tacitly awry, between us
and you lay, unperturbed
How do you still, lie so still

This macabre outcome
was never about your pecadilloes
or my inadequacies

Instead it was about concealment
precariously edging on revelation
the whole
damn
time
then plunged
and spread
a fresh gaping wound

Now that all has been said and done,
it seems rather, cathartic
Don't you think?
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Back to reality aka school,
God bless you all
XOXO
Cleo

Hit me like a ray of sun

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 16:48:34 GMT

And so AYG has come to an end,
and I must say it was really AWESOME.
Yeah I was a bit hesitant about it initially, because of the time
it would take up and me missing school with the upcoming Os
but I must say I don't regret it a single bit because everything that
I've learnt this past week was nothing that could be taught through
textbooks so I am a more than content lil' girl (:

So FIBA, FIBA was really exciting though it was more watching than announcing
and the basketballers mostly looked like over grown weeds, but yeah,
I'll never forget the crashing of the tech officials room
chatting with the sound tech and crew over there
who were ever so spontaneous, supportive and encouraging,
overlooking our mistakes and never looking down on us cos of our age and all
and who could forget the wonderful YOG team who's been nothing less than marvellous
and inspirational this whole week
and sorry for being a nuisance cos of the unstable condition of my voice as well as losing
my pass D: Esp to Jody and Steph, <3 you guys (STEPH YOU DRANK MY MILO)

Adam came down to help as well, but didn't get a photo with him.
Thanks Vijay and Uncle Mark for the constant support!

Team Korea

Team China
(OMG okay, see the 2nd player from the left he is THE COOLEST SHIZZZ ever like his 3 pointers totally
saved the team, AND HE LOOKS LIKE AN EMPEROR THE KIND WITH THE LONG SILK COSTUME THINGIES
so I named him Emperor Li, and he I think he is AWESOME did I tell you did I did I did IIIIIIIIIIIIIIi)

The boys team for Singapore played really well in my view,
but I was pretty disappointed in the Singapore audience who refused
to join Steph, Jody and I in cheering our country on
and the other countries who only had a few rows in the whole stadium
were so united when practically the rest of the audience were Singaporeans.
I guess it's the whole culture instilled in Singaporeans, that if you're not the best
you're not good enough. Anyhoohows I'm really proud of them for playing their
guts out, they did the nation proud (:

Team Singapore.

EMPEROR LI

SEEE I TOLD YOU HE LOOKS LIKE AN EMPEROR,
and he is 16 and 1.96m how cooooool is thattttt
China gold medallists (:

After that was dinner and ice cream with Greg, Chu Ting and Ben Ben!
Hahaha great friends I haven't seen in AGES (:
and it was much fun, went down to the arts house to visit Nadia
then we spent a long time playing with those future predicting card thingums
was pretty hilarious.

Well my holidays are officially over and it's back to school,
to the serious inevitable mugging.
I remember cycling with Caryl and we were saying how living each day like it was your last
was too ridiculous and unfeasible, so we decided on living each day knowing it's not wasted.
I think I've been keeping to that, and I always will.

God bless you all people,
hope to see you around!
Love always,
Cleo

Feeling good don't ever cost a thing

Wed, 01 Jul 2009 15:58:43 GMT

Diving, skiving, my thing (:

Hahah alright not really my thing, but definitely one of the best times I've had
in the 16 years of my life.Well, first, haha I've never seen so many hot bods, ever
Bods, not really faces, but yeah BODS.

Some personal favourites, haha shared with J and E of course!

Wu Dongliang from China, gold medallist for the boys 3m springboard was inhumanly awesome
almost perfecting all his dives, and he has oneof the most beautiful bodies I've seen
Hahha (my mum agrees) Okay, but his voice is freaking high, and while I was admiring him from far as he walked closer
he tripped over the chair and I realised he's shorter than me by quite a bit.
So hahaa from far works fine (:

Alharbi Rashed from Kuwait, silver medallist for the boys 3m springboard
He is the cutesttttt thing ever, and one of great, great sportsmanship as well
He would initiate handshakes with officials from other countries despite
the language barrier he would never fail to initiate a courteous form of respect
and displayed great support for his team mate as well as divers from other countries
for a boy with such a small frame, he's larger than life in the diving arena
(And yes, I am aware that I look like a retard here)

Ospan Ali from Kazhakstan, he isn't the best diver around but he's pretty good as well
and has an eye candy worthy face, especially when he smiles (:

Liu Jiao from China, gold medallist for the girls platform event.
She's really awesome, her lines are super clean and sharp
and she even got a perfect score on one of her dives.
And she's really pretty and friendly in person.

I must say the crew is the best I've worked with.
I've only known them for awhile since rehearsals
but going through 2 days of competition with them has been a pleasure
and I've taken away so much just by watching them work.
Truly the most humble people of seen.
They're all there as willing volunteers, putting in their 101%
in every aspect they are put charge of. They might not have the most glamorous jobs,
mostly the toughest but essential ones that run in the background, whose services
the audience take for granted.
They aren't the most well educated people, but you've got to give it up to them
because personality wise they're in every way better, and undoubtedly happier
than any other person from an elite school or what-say-you
because at the end of the day, they're proud of who they are and what they have done
they're content with themselves and their abilities,
and they look at their mistakes, learn from them, and move on
they know they're not the best but they don't need to be,
because they're every imperfection is what makes them perfect.
To sum it all up, in my view, they're people so easy to love because they love themselves.
It's easy for me to believe in them, because they believe in themselves.
And if you ask me, you don't find personalities like these much anywhere else.

We work hard and we play hard (:
After the final day of competition ended,
we had the pool open to us to do whatever we want.
So we tried out all the diving boards and platforms
AND OH MY FREAK THE 10M PLATFORM IS LIKE *^@@#&*#
and yeah, because we are EVIDENTLY not divers,
we all landed PIAK on the water and whooooooo
our asses didn't take it very well.
But the thrill was all worthwhile.
Video should be up on fb sometime soon, when Jody loads it, I'll post it here.

To be honest I do have my insecurities about missing out on school and everything
but as yeah I do believe God has a reason for putting me where I am,
and I'm grateful for that because I know that I'm gaining in another less
conventional area, and even if others don't accept it it doesn't matter.
For one thing, I've placed my faith, my treasure with God in heaven where
no one can touch it. So yeah despite my greatest "competitor" none other
than my very self, I've come to learn that I can't win in every situation otherwise
I'd very well be God. So come what may, I know God's got it all worked out for me
and even if situations don't present themselves as favourable in my view
my unwavering faith tells me that God knows what he's doing and every path I take
is undoubtedly the best for me. I'll give my 5 loaves and 2 fishes of course,
one step at a time, I won't offer anything less but my human abilities only go so far, so
Jesus take the wheel.

These young sports competitors are an inspiration as well.
Apart from their unbelievable physical abilities
The amount of mental perseverance they possess is BAGUS
It's obvious that what they have doesn't come easy
and behind it involves years and years of continuous intensive training
and to think their aound my age and are achieving so much
it really spurs me on to pursue greater things in this breath of a life that I've got

Wow, that's one long post, probably the longest since I've had forthegerbera,
but I just had to post it cos I know that in the tumult of pressure to come
when I'm back in school, I'll have something to look back on that'll make me smile (:

FIBA tomorrow! (:

Where the real you is a Super Star

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 15:33:21 GMT

The holidays have been good to me.
Schedule's been a bit tough on me
and is going to get worse but I've managed to find my
rest within all this 'busy-ness' in the smallest of things,
that have very well become the greatest of things.
I managed to catch up with old friends, new friends
not all, but some, a nice good some

For accepting me for who I am, for being okay with my flaws.
For helping me to find stillness, and bravery
to go through with things I cannot fully perceive
but have to go ahead with
For loving me even though it's not an easy thing to do
I guess the list goes on,
but mostly for seeing me through and through

Hey, I thank you

AND AS THE GREAT HANNAH MONTANA (leave me alone, I'm a kid, and I LIKE IT THAT WAY)
ONCE SAID,
"Life's a climb, but the view's great"

Hahhaha, cheerios people,
God loves you all.

Little girls depend on things like that

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 15:10:29 GMT

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

当爱与希望投射炙热的太阳

昨日泪光会随时间都蒸发

别轻易放弃明天要许更多愿望

装满了勇气就更有力量

当爱与希望倒映暖暖的月亮

再回头望又是筑好的家乡

我知道未来还有好多路要闯

我打开了窗看见了晴朗

It's inexplicable how God already has my future planned out
There are so many things I want to know
like how I'm going to do for Os and where I'm going next year
and when I'm going to marry and why I would do so
and where why how and, then?
But I'm glad I can rest because he knows, and he is good.

I spent most of my day reading.
I do like books, I like how they make it possible to contain

life into a bind of pages that has a start and end.
I like how pages, with everything they explain, are tangible.
I like how the most tragic stories,

can happen and the sadness only lingers for no more than five minutes.

I like how they tell you just what you need to know,

and always let you figure them out eventually.

I like how they're easy.

I also like how the suburban and simple hillbilly life looks, well, nice.

You can stand under my umbrella

Sat, 23 May 2009 16:53:24 GMT

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love

Every step to kingdom come

I will follow you into the dark

Fri, 15 May 2009 13:26:29 GMT

Strong enough to be weak
Successful enough to fail
Busy enough to make time
Wise enough to say “I don’t know”
Serious enough to laugh
Rich enough to be poor
Right enough to say “I’m wrong”
Compassionate enough to discipline
Mature enough to be childlike
Important enough to be last
Planned enough to be spontaneous
Controlled enough to be flexible
Free enough to endure captivity
Knowledgeable enough to ask questions
Loving enough to be angry
Great enough to be anonymous
Responsible enough to play
Assured enough to be rejected
Victdorious enough to lose
Industrious enough to relax
Leading enough to serve

Hi Caryl (:

If only

Sun, 10 May 2009 15:10:42 GMT

So you see I was wondering if I had this intangible but existent arsenal
to store up all these thoughts and distractions and temptations and contempt blablabla.
Only I would have access to it right.
Then I could just take what I need from it at appropriate times
and always be the right person for any situation,
and be ready to counter any circumstance without worries
of deviating or having an incursive mind
that just doesn't prove to be useful in preparation for upcoming tests
(like now, I am blogging, I should not be, now see Ashley, I am rebellious.)
But then what if I lost the key.
Then where would I place my worry for not having the key?
So you see keys aren't very effective things either.
I would conclude that from every attempted solution a new worry springs up,
and it's all not worth so much thought.
And since the sun still rises, and we're all still very much alive the next morning,
we might as well dive into all this shizz without heeding our emotions so much,
which is why I thought of the arsenal, which I concluded was not very good theory
but ah nevermind. All sucks.

It's okay, there is ugliness in every one of us. And when you put all this same ugliness in
this one same world you get an equilibrium, and because this ugliness is on par and has
no means any more degrading, it is the best. And because it is now the best, it has become beautiful.
We are all beautiful. Yes I like this theory. This is good, will carry me through my studying time.

I am in such a wordy mood. It is an insiduous release, expression.
Okay I ramble like an S factor contestant, so brainless but fun.

Baibai.

Where do you run to escape from yourself?

Fri, 08 May 2009 16:19:57 GMT

My handphone makes this slight depression in the vast spread of my bedsheet
and it looks so small and harmless but it's perforating music into my bedroom air
and I think it's pretty cool how someone's voice is so comfortably exuding in my room,
though that person is somewhere far off and doesn't know who the heck I am.
But that's alright, cos it's like company, company that I don't have to be accountable to.
Y'know like be obliged to reply or empathise with, just light hearted, non committal nor judgemental company
Oh wow, I think I seem like an ostracised hermit recluse thingum,
no, no, it's just nice sometimes, when you have to stay up late to finish work.

Summer came like cinammon

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 17:31:10 GMT

So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.

Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.

You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 16:52:26 GMT

"Be who you are and say what you feel,
because those who mind don't matter
and those who matter don't mind."

Here, there, everywhere.

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 16:30:51 GMT

I was walking home, and it was almost 8, and I was indulging in a
bag of fries. And I felt like a kid then, and I liked it.
I felt like the whole world didn't think I was capable of doing anything myself,
so they would go and do everything for me.

也许大男人真的很难忍
少了点风度
还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一点说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀

I'd do anything

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 17:58:08 GMT

I found out that people smell like their houses.
Really, there's just this thing about how the houses smell,
like, like my friend who stays there.
Nevermind, one day the theory will hit you in full blast
when you get a whiff of your friend/ your friend's house.
But don't intentionally try it, cos that would be, not very nice.

I would like to make my parents proud someday.
Not the intrinsic kind of proud that they've already got
the first time they see you, through even the ultrasound.

But more like, they'll be proud of me as much as they are of themselves.
For making me who I am, at that point of time.
Kind of like, pride that will follow them, that even if they have to leave me someday
they'll know I'll be alright.

That would be all, I'm contented despite knowing everything's going to be unalright before it can get alright.
Like things have to go wrong in order to be corrected right?
You have to fall before you can ever pick yourself up right?
You have to open up before you can ever get closure.
So in this sense, I am contented knowing it gets alright in the end.

Have a good week will ya, for yourself, have one (: